Grief be not subtle, Not here, Nor there. It creeps in Like a draft, out of nowhere. It carries a stew of feels, Of emotions To carry us away In waves. The emotions rush in, in different patterns, in different ways on different days. The inner affects the outer and so it weakens the physical body as well. The mental body knows it must survive and so either identifies with the grief and sorrow more and more each day or it rejects going through it and, in denial, escapes it. The mental body of course goes through anything according to its knowledge-turned-to-wisdom, cognitive ability and the state of its own health and perception. The energy lowers or at times goes through peaks and valleys due to the person being trapped in the waves of emotions as they resist or don't resist going through the grief. Either way, there are many emotions. In the West we don't do very well with "the feels." There is a tendency to want to fix it, make it smarter, faster or to get "over it" and "move on"; also, "if you do not move on at a certain point then you are most definitely weak or close to being a basket case." Grief can bequeath very deep trauma. Some even believe that it can trigger a long-time wound in the soul from a past life, soul contract or past trauma from another lifetime. Some go even deeper, believing that which caused the grief could have fulfilled a soul contract. Keeping it simple and to one life time, we can say: based on studies a death, an end to something, a loss, can not only hold that pain and sorrow but also feel like an old wound has been opened because it has. When grief happens, most would not want to go deeper or sit and contemplate what they are feeling because they want to get over it. But it is very important that we go through it. If one feels abandoned it is good to go into why and how one learned of this and, from there, when one felt abandoned before. Other feelings too are good landmarks on our road within. Getting frustrated maybe feels as if you could have done something different and perhaps a line of buried guilt also needs to be sat with, forgiven; contemplated and forgiven, then released. This is where a support person or team is good to have. But once you are at the point of grief the most important thing is allowing yourself the space, the personal space and being open to receive. Receive help. Receive, restore and reinvent yourself. If grief is because over the loss of a job or gig? Again a process, resistance makes it worse and once something has not just told you to *move on* but shut doors, you should probably move on but not by suppressing or ignoring it. That is just not the way it works because there are 7.6 billion ways to see something and to feel it. Once you feel it is time to let go, for example, you probably already did deep inside and are having a hard time accepting it. I see with people that come to me for microdosing. Most have grief if they have trauma and loss, and they aren't fully prepared to go through that because some are hoping the mushroom medicine will do it for them. One doesn't only grieve death of a person but also death of parts of ourselves. At times people come in and are really still grieving because they haven't gone through the grief of let's say a divorce which triggered another grief, a deeper one they didn't or couldn't be remembered fully, from a trauma in childhood, and so on. We are not taught about grief, we have to go out and find books or go to groups or look for resources; being that it is very human, it's funny how we are not taught about many things that are very detrimental to our health. Microdosing helps when it comes to trauma and grief. Even with end of life they agree that it helps with the acceptance of the transition. It helps process that grief. A monster dose, in my book, is never needed. For a fun twist maybe do that once in a lifetime, or two if you must. Terence McKenna died of a brain tumor and did many monster doses. I recommend microdosing and doing the introspection and self-study as you go along and doing perhaps one good substantial dose in a month for as long as you microdose. Journaling, self-study, meditation and contemplation is a must for me. The root, is what that grief can lead us to. So if doing the microdosing for trauma expect to grieve or to go through grief. If microdosing for grief, expect most of the time to find the real reason why you are grieving may or may not be linked to the direct traumatic experience you are grieving but also to an indirect traumatic experience which leads us to the root, which leads us to knowing more about "who" is grieving. "Who had the trauma?" leads us deeper into the "who were/are you?" That is why care should be approached with so delicately. Understanding the full spectrum of emotions and allowing yourself to feel even emotions you don't have names for is also key, writing what comes to mind and contemplating. You're not just thinking about it but checking in with yourself. For example, if someone is grieving the death of a loved one and they are feeling left behind and abandoned—are they thinking in the victim role? Did anyone really leave them on purpose? Or did they love them and care and transition into another stage of their life as energy? They never planned on meeting them just to die and leave them miserable, but they did transition, and if the person feels abandoned and cannot get over that feeling they should bravely go into that direction making sure they do not abandon themselves by not tending to deep needs and healing. However, microdosing for trauma and grief can get very difficult and very hard to do alone. It is best to reach out for help. Practice receiving and sharing as you do this. You do not have to reach out to a source like myself; you can reach out for clinical help, free therapy and other shamans of course, or seek some sort of spiritual or mental support because it's not about the psilocybin doing the work for you. It's about you doing it. "Recovery" by Chelsea Criger It is about borrowing, being given the gift of seeing through the perspective of nature, being lent her consciousness or conscious eyes and seeing ways in which to get through whatever you must go through. Learning, that is why—as people go along we journal—we do a nice 3.5 dose or so (max). Depending on each individual, it may vary. To research or dissect later, once not in the altered state, so as to use the notes or things said and experienced to go deeper, we get to the root of the grief and then the root of the trauma or traumas. Be open to exercise or body movement in order to get fresh oxygen into those lungs, and to circulate and increase that energy. Processing the anger at times goes lovely at the gym, running or other physical activities. Much better than just sitting in it and thinking about it, be active and don't focus all on being a microdoser. Don't adopt another label. Don't try to be or sum up your experience such as microdosing with the mushroom beings in some three sentence comment. You should have good material for your self-love and self-realization, plus good practice for non-judgement, kindness and compassion. Take the time to observe the self and receiving the experience you create for yourself with honor and respect because you can learn from the mushrooms and they do help with grief, but it's very important to understand that the mind body and soul need TLC throughout the whole process. If there is any mental Illness please be advised to see a doctor first or as well. Make sure your health isn't struggling. Make sure your weight is healthy and all else is in line. Also some medications do not work if we are using natural medicine as well, and some don't mix energetically, while others can cause bad side effects if mixed, so proceed with care please. I make sure to go over a list of things because when working alternative care or homeopathic, root herbal work and so on, I always had to check what medicines or foods people were taking because some herbs also don't mix with each other or with some prescriptions. For me it is something I am in the habit of doing and took courses and extra studies to strengthen that practice. Explore in your network for perhaps a sitter or a good friend to help you with things. Sometimes, since it is recommended, people add or increase physical activity if possible, it's good to have a cheerleader friend or coach to support and check in with. At first you may not feel comfortable with the larger, once a month, dose or feel it's too much or little. Practice trusting yourself and keeping it at a moderate dose vs monster dose. Surrender to yourself. Trust yourself based on how your smaller doses have gone and also based on how you are feeling, to know if a 3.5 gram or a 2 gram or a 3 gram dose for your monthly higher dose is best, because the moderate though heavier dose is still one you should be able to draw, and write about, no matter how sloppy. Don't let your head keep you from getting a good enough journey by adding fear into the mix. If you are doing it alone, go easy, then save the knowledge for next month. If with a friend or sitter or support team then perhaps go a little higher than you would have if alone, but making sure that that person or group is going to be there for you to talk to, be safe expressing yourself to or to perhaps bring your food, snacks, hydration, coloring materials or music etc. Keep your tools handy for you to work with later, for you to sit with later and perhaps make little or large break through with later. You can leave things to activate memories and observe how you feel about/with your surroundings. Interact with it all. Explore your grief and go through it. When I work with people everything in the room, though subtle, is placed right there, or we design playlists and breath journeys to get the most out of the larger dose day, while working weekly with the regularly scheduled microdosing. If just the class then we do a full three hour to as long as four hour class in two integration sessions to make sure the DIY goes as great and is fulfilling and healing as possible. People will do it themselves due to many reasons, but largely for grief and trauma. This is why I offer the low cost or sliding scale, because these are not easy things to go at alone. If you believe you have something not right or a deeper trauma you may not remember, or a grief that is too much, the mushroom medicine can help you go through it, but you still have to, so don't make it harder on yourself. Begin being true to yourself and accepting where you're at so you may express it at least to yourself. If you don't know, then even more reason to wait or reach out, so as to clear any fears and misconceptions or so as to ease the soul and breathe, so you can set a nice clear intention. Psilocybin can assist and help show you a new perspective on how to go through grief or trauma, but remember that it is not adding anything without you and you really are that brave. You really do have access to limitless beautiful courage within. Honor the trauma, the grief, the microdosing, the act of "working" with them. Honor each moment, even the ones of grief. There is infinite abundance of knowledge and keys to deeper parts of yourself and self-realization. After all, isn't meeting deeper parts of our true self what we're here for? Who else better to love and have the honor of meeting throughout all of this if not yourself, more and more each day? Above all, honoring all that helped us peel off layers and transcend this limited human shell, making the experience far sweeter. Microdosing has great potential for helping with grief and trauma, if respected as a therapy and as what it is, which is working with consciousness and seeing from a space outside of the mind's entrapment.
There's a lot here and it is a soul food salad. A super mix for the soul or feed your head type dish. Do remember I am mainly online. In person in Florida north of central Florida. Mention healers of course but with me I always work my business from higher heart. I use scale down system, the more you do the less I charge and I also barter and offer the shamanic Journey plus microdosing class and two integration sessions for one accessible amount for my do it yourself brave souls who resonate with the plant medicine option. So on that note let's begin! In the last post we dove into the fact that some begin a microdosing journey and then begin a walk with grief and trauma without being really, ready for it. Not that anyone ever really is. At times even doing more advanced powerful meditations and other more in depth chakra and energy balancing or commiting to spiritual practices and/ or Microdosing, proves to be a psychic cleaning house so to speak. When one begins powerful meditations, techniques, breath and the path of self realization and/or mastery; one can usually expect repressed - anger, hatred, rage, grief, you name it, to come into your playing field ...daily life. You may find yourself having upsetting thoughts and feelings and not knowing why these are occurring. Things like this can last longer than people may hear about in the mainstream glorification of Psychedelics/ Entheogens/ Plant medicine. These thoughts, unsettled manifestations can last a year or more given the intensity of which they were suppressed in your younger years. As mentioned in the prior read, some people don't even remember and at times stumble upon things that lead them to a childhood trauma that began defining them or that definitely had a lot to do with their emotional development or other parts of our essence and true self. We may not remember but our minds do. In time, once worked and gone through, those suppressed emotions will be cleaned out and the soul will be able to advance and be much more free. One will find inner balance and peace, most definitely but the going through it isn't something you can't avoid just because you have chosen to microdose or do a ketamine or psilocybin or MDMA on your own. And that's good. Anger does get suppressed by many if not all, in the course of their lives, if suppressed long enough, then perhaps, hate as well. Nothing wrong with that. It isn't good but it's called being human and going through life. Facing our darkness may sound ominous but that's in part or totally depending on who you ask, it sounds ominous and scary due to the lingo, the conditioning and the energy of the words. For example: "Shadow" makes you think- "not light", next? "Dark" as defined by Hollywood right up there with all the other things we should be afraid of. Let's not leave behind the word "work" which carries that energy of something you have to do but normally don't want to do. Facing that which isn't light and fluffy about yourself. And facing that which isn't light and fluffy about yourself can be hard but you aren't just one sided or one dimensional. What I'm trying to say is that although it is hard it is still a "part of yourself". Take out the big work and horror vibes and throw in some extra love. There are many things you may get to experience when going through any plant medicine, or a traditional *spiritual vs physical exercise* yoga path, breath and meditation practice etc. this is because the consciousness of these beings and the alchemy if you will, of these practices helps you and these things magnify and put into light that which doesn't serve you anymore. It's all part of the self discovery and I don't know about you, but being that we are in these roles, personalities wrapped in a flesh bag condition, part of the deal is probably getting to know yourself and part of that self discovery process may not all be easy, bright and fun or easy. And that's ok. It really is. So accepting that makes it a lot easier for people I work with. Once they accept that we are good to move forward. The term "shadow work" is laid out all over the place today, titles of books or programs and courses all with the conquest of the shadow promised. First thing is what's to overcome? Yourself ? Your Shadow? Why? Doesn't really make sense. Why is it bad? Because? Who said so? In shamanism you don't beat or conquer, but instead you embrace and integrate. You face it and transcend it. You go through it. That Shadow, all that "stuff" is you. Anger. The angry one is you, so why are you angry? And? Let it out now go deeper. What part hurts? What are you trying to protect? And so on. It takes time but once you start either stirring those waters of emotion or stilling those waters ...you may begin to bring up some debris that lay deep in your ocean. You start and begin to work and transcend it and let's say ya stop and the mind beats you! Beats you up . . . Why? Because you don't "own it" enough yet, and you are trying to skip steps maybe or not ready to handle all that slow paced microdose stuff you want quick and fast instant remedy and you rather do monster doses and skip the integration and just keep charging along making improvements but not making that Quantum leap that you really need to make. Let's say that, or let's say you were doing good and started transcending but you didn't have a good support system and you stopped. 🛑 Now you just uprooted a lot of things and they aren't going to go anywhere. Normally what happens then is that people just spiral about. Doing good or average as they go along with small breakthroughs perhaps but still seeking. They feel the small benefits and say how it changed their lives yet they remain very visibly in the thick of it. Different triggers, different drugs or different things to hold on to and base their existence on. Different hungers and thirsts. That inner peace and fulfilled feeling, escaping them. Some go on to try other paths till they find the one, the one that gives them enough tools to get to that inner courage. Others don't. Others do other microdoses...monster doses, experiment, dabble or go hard core. I like to use real life examples real life stories from any part of the spectrum because all are unique as are you and your path. I worked with someone who only did monster doses a lot, he did many good practices hard core, everything intense and it wasn't until he did a six month microdose season with me doing only slightly higher doses 2x a month AND the work that he got all the answers that he wanted. Haha! He got some past life Intel, he arranged things in his life, got rid of others and realized he had lived his whole life trying to validate himself. He had become successful to prove something. He just hadn't realized yet that as Independent and strong as he was trying to be he had fallen victim to himself and his experiences as a child. He wasn't working at what he really loved and he never really opened up about that as well. He would get angry but not about that..haha, he didn't recall that really. He admitted his father and him did not agree as many men do but there was more. He left details out when talking to anyone. He suppressed it all enough to begin a drug addiction that he would also successfully manage like many others do too. Not all heavy drug users are the media image- junkies on skid row. He also took care of himself and had read and researched but he had never suspected that he would end up doing everything in his life because of one thing/one person, how the way "that" relationship went, would affect so much about them, how the way one person saw him would define how he saw himself and who he would become. That's painful. So then what? What then? Keep going? Figure out what life would have been like if he hadn't spent energy on becoming something he thought would do away with that trauma and he had to go into what he had and explore what he was like before someone wrote on the walls of his mind and told him what to think and define who he was growing up to be. He had done the Microdosing and monster doses as I mentioned and was going to either stop it or go to conventional therapy which he was resistant about ( didn't resonate) and then a friend told him to visit me because I liked fitness, had worked with athletes and extreme sports guys, did shamanic and so he came in and felt a good vibe. We talked and he saw his part in this. He saw he had to work with the plant. Microdosing or macro dose. He did and we worked together. All become a story or a song or painting in my dream. Happy to share his because though rocky it is a great example. He had a good job, beautiful partners but..... something was still missing. As always it was an honor to watch his story unfold into one of liberation. Maybe, you began microdosing and things started coming up? Maybe it isn't grief but you feel anger or you are experiencing memories of something and you don't even know what you are feeling or how to express it to someone yet, that's ok. Practice, exercise being compassionate with yourself. Ideas ? Ready and go! Draw Write as much as you can Write yourself letters or journal Note down what you feel Play music Dance Play a sport Spin fire Hula hoop Play basketball Do some cross fit Golf or go to the gun range or whatever activities that demand your full attention, that you resonate with and like obviously. Express yourself to yourself physically. Run or swim and release some of that suppressed energy that's been simmering. Get some reflexology or go to a spring, get massages or use a tense machine and get that energy moving. Sit with yourself and maybe think about activities or things you maybe stopped doing, why? Revisit them. If doing yoga or martial arts, Chi Kung, for example, use that to release and balance some energy. If feeling too aggressive, tone it down with some yin yoga. Meditate There are over 100 ways to meditate I pass on quite a few ways even online in my vama marga/ shamanic Energy body living subscription, and meditation can be enjoyed even if hyper or if you suffer from ADD. I personally know you can. You may not be able to do the standard YouTube slow meditation style but you can meditate even if you are hyper and diagnosed manic. You just have to explore other ways to get into that meditative state. You may even do them already without even realizing it. What if you don't do anything physical? Then, ask yourself why? Find ways to release that by exploring other avenues but it's a package deal, so to speak; mind, body and soul. The benefits and reasons way too many to do in just one post though I always worked them together for people that come to me because it is an integrated healing. We must tend to all three because they each affect the others. And in all compassion, even a person diagnosed with obesity can go for a walk or do some basic slow calm breath and arm raises. Just like others should meet us where we are at so should we meet ourselves where we are truly at. If you are working the mind/ body/ soul connection then accept that you are living bravely and that you have limitless courage. Take time to celebrate your doing this, for taking the time to focus on yourself. If you considered or are considering microdosing or a new way to explore yourself, get to know yourself, become a better version of yourself, heal yourself...that takes courage. If it gets too be too much, reach out to me or someone you DO resonate with. In order to be a healer we must be ego-less because we may not always be the right person for that individual and that is ok. There are many avenues these days for lower cost online therapy and you don't have to start therapy right away or go for a long time but sometimes doing a little visit once a month or so when it gets a little overwhelming or you find you aren't getting through it, is just what you may need to adjust that dial and keep going. Exercise your mind by reading and nurturing it. Feed it good stuff. Mind the energy around you. Be aware of your surroundings and maybe tell people who are close to you. Let them know you are going to start on a microdosing journey or that you did and that some things are coming up. Get yourself a nice little support team or support system around you. Take some time to do a stay-cation or a little time by yourself. Do some hours of silence and observe yourself. What do you think about when no one is there? Where does your mind go? What memories or what kind of memories have been pouring in? What dreams? How is the dream activity? Observe your self talk. Use hours of silence or solo time for observation. Observation of self. What do you tell yourself? If alone, how do you wake up? Do you choose to be angry even when nothing has happened in the day except for the sun coming out? What was your struggle as a kid? If you remember a specific traumatic experience and that's why you decided to microdose then be even more active in this, like this, early on. Mind. Body. Soul If your libido goes down because of whatever is coming up, pay mind to that as well and ask yourself….why? Be brave, patient and listen. Soulwise For the soul and energetic body of course I am going to be partial to ancient practices specially for your aura, your past life clearing, karma contract ending, shamanic cleansing, purification and all that but you can do many things for your energy. One of them is to acknowledge that you are energy and that the plant Medicine does not put anything in you that you didn't already have. Nothing really tells you anything you didn't already know deep inside. Be brave. Pause. Breathe. Accept Allow Express Respect yourself and your journey here. Acknowledge you are breathing, you have a will, you can feel when someone is staring at you or when a room has a bad vibe about it or when you feel a gut instinct or something in your gut (what we call your gut mind or lower dantien etc. in other practices), you don't have to do those practices but do sit with the fact that you have 30 trillion cells producing energy making you an energetic being and stop to breathe and feel it. In awareness feeling that, strengthens that very energy of yours we are talking about. Where your attention goes so to does your energy. Give yourself all the attention you may need without hurting others. You can ask for what you need and express that you need space with love and compassion. One of the problems today is that lack of acknowledgement and ownership. Being a conscious being, being aware means just that. It doesn't mean that you need time and so nothing else matters. It means you understand that if you are an energetic being others are too and if you have buried suppressed trauma, others probably do too. If you need love, time and space, understanding people that can just hold space with you without judging or mocking you then others probably do too. It means you are aware. Aware of imperfections, perfections and work with that just like you work with the plant medicine. Mind your food as well. Has your appetite been affected? Are you sleeping enough and getting restoration? Maybe too much caffeine or too much processed food in the diet is also affecting you as you process things. A sluggish metabolism a slow body means something in that bodies energy isn't in that flow. Be it organs that are not in prime health due to stress and suppressed anger affecting the liver, worry affecting the spleen and tummy etc. or lack of sleep affecting your focus, again, observe yourself. Don't judge yourself. Remember what you are and sit with that as well. Your whole body is in flow. You have circulation and a beautiful heartbeat that flows to its own rhythm. Know thyself. But above all remember to sit as the observer with yourself in neutrality. No judgement. Be vigilant of signs that maybe you should pause and really finally go through this. If you are going in loops remember the path is a spiral and you will keeping going through lessons until you pass. Be gentle with yourself. When preparing a person to microdose and during the Microdosing therapy and integration whether it's for a do it yourself individual with not much money to spend but the commitment to self or a once a week full therapy and integration I take time to go through shamanic journeys and different chats to assist in not just "doing some microdosing" but maximizing the assistance of the plant consciousness for long lasting results and for life expansion experiences. I wanted to write a bit and throw in a lot of things perhaps a lot to some, because you don't have to use all the tips but they are food for thought so you too can design the best way to work with these energies in the best way you resonate with. Sometimes that means getting a lot thrown your way so that you can finally pause and breathe and observe yourself and really embark on a fuller life through your own perspective based on your own experiences and to turn your own knowledge into wisdom. You can also create some Tools to use when questioning or meeting a new therapist or when sitting to make your own therapy plan. Let's face it the ultimate goal when people have the desire to do this is more inner peace, happiness and self realization and better quality of life. You can do that without the plant and without therapy but it's harder for the most part and can waste time. But you can also waste valuable time by just popping a .5 microdose a day for a month and just feeling you gained more patience and felt a little better. Ultimately that's not really doing what needs to be done. And for that no Microdosing can do it for you. For that you are the one that must commit to yourself and begin increasing that self dedication feeling you deserve at least that in order to then flow into increased self love and self understanding and that better quality of life only you can give yourself. Much love Shakti
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